AT A SPIRITUAL CROSSROADS

Its another Sunday and the demons are at it again with the once weekly incessant guilt trips and torments. As ever before i remain my indignant self standing in the middle of a million different religions and their claim to the creator.

These demons chose today due to my Christian heritage, you see i grew up with my uncle and his family who were Christians at the time(But no longer are and couldn't possible care less) so i was raised in the Christian "Truth".

However, I never really made a personal decision to follow the Christian way, not in the real sense of it and this made me wonder if i was a good child or not growing up(I guess I wasn't).
How could I? There were just too many questions without satisfactory answers.

I thought in my little mind about the various religions in and wondered "Is it really possible that only mine is Truth?"(to mention a few)
I couldn't dare say that out loud for obvious reasons.

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Why are there so many religions, and how did they come about, I wondered to myself. To top it all my Christian denomination did not believe in interfaith so it was all the more confusing. Imagine being a minority in your religious sect...

ANSWERS

I searched for answers everywhere i could at the time, i still do, just like most people...
I sometimes wish i was comfortable with religion and it's tales. Maybe i would have have a lot more calmness, moreover religion is known to be of good therapeutic benefit.. But then again i'd rather be awake and aware...

At this point i feel like i must say that this is just my own view and it might have no bearing on whatever the truth really is. There is something however that in my opinion beats religion all day long.

SPIRITUALITY

How do you define spirituality?
Spirituality involves the recognition of a feeling or sense or belief that there is something greater than myself, something more to being human than sensory experience, and that the greater whole of which we are part is cosmic or divine in nature.
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I spoke with an old friend @Khaleesii today and found out that just like me her dad had passed a while ago and it brought back some memories of my experience that really made me see things differently.

I wondered to myself as I lay beside my dad in the hospital while he was alive what the purpose of this life was.. You see, the cancer had all but killed him.. It was simply a matter of when he was going to die and how best we could care for him till the inevitable occurred.

Nigeria is a highly religious country and it was no wonder tons of pastors and men of "God" came praying and saying he was healed(The precise moment my indignance began)
Surrendering to the idea of spiritually has since proved satisfactory for me with good reason.

On that note I want to say that I don't discriminate against your region but I hope you find what you're looking for and you find a degree of peace in the amidst your demons just as I have.

Hellbound? Maybe, but I’ll stay at this here crossroads as flesh and blood cannot inherit the kingdom anyways… No offense, I couldn’t resist, honestly, It was the devil.
Enjoy your sunday!!