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A few days ago, I wrote about how I deal with depression by talking to friends and family and for some reason, it's almost as if my enemies read the post and decided to renew my depression subscription.

Today was the day I probably had it the worse because I had woken up feeling sad and depressed for no reason, and to make matters worse, the hostel has been empty for a while now (because majority of my friends here have traveled back home), so there's basically no one to talk to about it to try to calm me down or make me forget about whatever it is that is making me feel this way.

And seeing how that is usually my way of dealing with things like things (talking to people), I've decided to try another way. You see I've read a couple of posts today that had to do with sadness and how to deal with it and one of the post had suggested that I tried to tough it out by being strong and just moving on.

Although that might be a bit hard for me to do, but seeing how that might be my only option, I think it's the only choice that I have, to be a man, a strong man.

Sadly, I can't talk to any of my family members about how I feel because I don't want any of them worrying about me and going the extra mile to try to see to it that I'm fine by asking me to go visit anyone (my aunties), so that they can look after me.

I guess that is one of the sad things about being in this kind of state when you're someone like me who likes to be alone, because you can't even talk to your love ones for fear of them wanting to come stay with you when you don't want them to.

Anyways, just like every other sad feeling that has come in the past, I hope this one comes and goes and it doesn't get to a stage where it's serious and I have to go seek for professional help.

So please wish me well.