How Do You Rebuild A Broken Bond?

It's been more than a month or two since it last happened.
And now I feel everything we've built over the years is going down the rail and getting twisted all over again.
I admit I was at fault, I've been wrong for always treating my friend badly or like he meant nothing to me.
I admit I got rather too busy with life that I tend to forget or reach out to people that mattered to me and in my life.
I admit I was wrong for always assuming he was doing just fine and needed time to heal and deal with his problems.
I admit that I kept forgetting to drop words of encouragement during his darkest moment and even forgot his special day to say a word of prayer to him.
With all of this counting, anyone could conclude that he meant absolutely nothing to me if I could literally forget all about him like that.
In his bad days, dark moments, happy days, and joyful moments, I was nowhere to be found, so how then could I say he is important to me or matters to me?
Well, the truth is I don't even have a perfect excuse for all of these and I can't deny the fact that I have been such a terrible friend put together.
I've messed up numerous times and I keep asking for forgiveness every goddamn time.

And if anyone were to be in his shoes, they would have done the same thing he did out of anger and a saddened heart. It's not easy to continue forgiving and trying to forget the fact that the people important to you keep disappointing you or treating you like you are of no value to them or that you mean absolutely nothing to them.
I understand the pain, the sadness, the disappointment, the heartbreak, and all. I see everything, I feel everything and I do actually understand.
I felt I had better excuses, to cover up for the ill-treatment but no matter how much of an excuse I give, I admit that I was never right.
Yeah, I messed up and it would only take time to rebuild whatever it is I have let my carelessness break.

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How Do You Rebuild A Broken Bond?

If suggestions could be given, I would truly appreciate you all.
But before then, I wanna get this straight.
This person involved is my really good friend, he is not my boyfriend or fiance, and no romantic attachment whatsoever.
He is someone very important to me and as far as male-female friendship is involved, he has been doing very well.
He is quite mature and older than me in all ramifications.
I tend to run to him most time for advice concerning life, academics, friendship, relationship, and even spirituality.
This is how much value he has and how much of the world he means to me.
But I messed up! I wronged him in so many undeniable ways, for simply treating him less than who he is in my life and letting my action do the judging.

How do I start rebuilding the bond of friendship that I have used my very hands and actions to break?
How do I make him believe once more in our friendship? Cause as it stands, he doesn't care any longer whatever I do.
He feels I have much more important people in my life, people I attach relevance and value to while doing less about his case.

I just have a really bad habit of maintaining friendships. And so most times I ghost people very important people in my life, even my close friends.
I understand that this bad habit of mine is ruining most of my friendship with people even when some of them do not outrightly say it.
So I wanna improve, I wanna take people seriously in my life.
I want to maintain the very few friends I have who mean the world to me.
So share your suggestions or friendship tips if you have any with me.
Cause I am in a big mess at the moment.
The world is already a cruel place to do it all on your own or by yourself.
I would really appreciate any suggestion you guys have to share, I am looking forward to them, thank you.

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              22 April 2023