There's No Power And I'm Babbling
I miss the days when I'd rant here about emotional stuff, it just doesn't feel right doing it anymore. I thought of having a burner account but that's too much stress for me to be honest. Today is one of those days I'd like to rant and maybe figure out why it's a sad day.
It was a slow day generally and I wished for night to come mostly. It was unnecessarily long and I spent most of it scrolling on my phone, ignoring tasks that I need to finish. Anxiety had the best of me so I couldn't function. I knew I wasn't okay but I distracted myself with my phone and now, it seems to not be enough.
Everything I had pushed to the back of my mind is staring at me in the face and I don't know what to do. What's worse is we're out of power and it's been dark, and I think the darkness has a lot to do with how I feel. How do I know? Patterns.
I'm sad that I'm sad and it makes me sad that I can't write on all the content ideas that popped in my head yesterday. I don't remember all of them because I didn't jot them down but I remember about three.
Oh, the power came back right now and I'm not kidding, my head feels lighter. I might or might not attempt to get on my laptop now. I don't even know what I'm talking about at this point because all I can smell is my dog's fart on this throw-pillow, it's so confusing. Why does it smell like her fart ffs?
Anyway, power's back and that means I can drink some hot chocolate drink - or rather, tea, as we call it here. We got a water dispenser today after months of buying bottled water and littering the place. Apart from not having to be the neighbour that litters the garbage with plastic bottles, my favorite thing about this dispenser is that I don't have to boil water whenever I want to drink my tea.
I'm a tea addict, and like I said, I mean hot chocolate and not actual tea. I also like coffee but I don't take it as much because I have to avoid caffeine. I had coffee about three times last week and I think it messed up my sleeping pattern. Totally my fault.
What was I talking about again? Some mental health stuff right? Look, mental health management is a whole other ball game in Nigeria. Like, why is it so expensive to consult a therapist? Like an actual therapist that knows their job and I'd be comfortable with. I don't want some pastor that'd preach to me. I kid you not, stuff like that happens in Nigeria.
The water's probably hot now, I'm going to enjoy myself. See ya tomorrow. Thanks for reading my babble, no? OK bye.
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omo the absence of light makes everything so hard, I don’t know how everything gets affected, it's like the joy of going on with the day’s schedule gets zapped out with the light.
And about getting a therapist, the ones that are even almost affordable are almost not professional ,because with the few i have encountered indirectly it seems like paying for a pastor to preach to you.. so its easier to have listened to the pastor from the start than paying for one.
Then really good ones that come highly recommended their price alone would make the mental stress disappear.
We really do need like a free service for mental health counseling and therapy or at least affordable.
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I would honestly be wary of a cheap therapist but as I can't afford the good ones, I just dey my dey.
Lol not having power can mess up your day esp for creators like ourselves. That's why we got a gen and an inverter at my place. Plus we get close to 20 hours of light per day (thanks to the fact that the governor's mum stays in our neighbour)
Belemo should be your therapist. That's his number one job--to comfort and listen to you. Lol. Disturb him.
Yeah...but I don't think it's fair or even healthy to off-load on your partner every time
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So you do agree I was saying nonsense 🥲
Losing power definitely sucks! I’m glad it came back for you, though I’m sure you could do without the realization of the dog fart pillow.
Mental health is definitely an important thing and finding people that can help with that is tricky. It’s hard to quantify the benefit of mental health the way people can count the number of people who are overweight or something. I think because of that, it’s hard to get support for getting more resources for it sadly.
The fees need to be subsidised or something. These prices are outrageous.
Hahahaha I had great fun reading your babbling. With the power outage, I thought I check your profile. And then I understood. When we in my tiny country experience power outages, something is totally wrong since electricity is there all the time no matter what. That said, I can imagine how you can feel when again you'll be left in the dark since your energy company decided it can't provide the necessary current you may extract through your wall sockets. Looks like you made it back to the world of writing with a few newer posts to this one. NJOY the remaining of the Sunday... maybe the rain be with us {LOL}
I'm actually lucky with the amount of electricity I get where I live. It's way better than most places in the country. Sometimes though, they surprise us with these outages that reminds us we're still in Nigeria afterall.
Thanks for reading my babble 😄
I remember sitting with some of my customers in Lagos with the light flipping on/off. They suppose to have generators, but usually, they didn't run. We had our laptops and phones to have the necessary light during the meetings (I suppose, we usually used a meeting room without windows). All this was some time ago, like 10 to 15 years by now.
losing power sucks. It didn't happen as much to me these days but when it happens, definitely sucks. But now, I really see it as a way for me to step off from my laptop and rest. Otherwise, I'll never sleep/rest/or think about doing new stuff.
That's what happen in Indonesia too especially for those who are in the middle to lower income families who don't have access to proper therapist. There's even a stigma about dealing with mental health. So yeah, and the price of therapist isn't getting cheaper either 😪