[LOH-165] It's a First for Me, So I'll Gladly Accept That All Expenses Paid Trip to Another Country!

There's no doubt that I can't go on a trip alone in another country if ever I tried to travel. But not because I will be lonely - or maybe I will, but not that lonely. And the main reason would be because I am too shy to open my mouth to ask for help, and what if I encounter that while away in another country? What's going to happen to me? What if I was lost somewhere, and here I am still contemplating whether to ask for some assistance or not? There's a low chance that I will do that. I might just ask for help on my phone rather than ask a real person. Crazy, I know, (≧▽≦).

But still, if ever some good samaritan gifted me with an all-expenses-paid trip to another country, I would still gladly accept it - and with a happy heart. I will also shower them with lots of hearts like this (≧▽≦). That's a once-in-a lifetime chance that can only happen if I get lucky. And yes, even if it means spending a holiday alone, far from my family, and even though I am used to spending holidays with my family.

For sure, I will be lonely, especially since it will be the first time for me (◍•ᴗ•◍). And you know, if I am really alone on that trip, I am not sure if I can fully enjoy it because having even one person beside you while on the trip will really be a big help, especially for me. Like I said, I am too shy, and I am not even sure if I can go outside to look around and really enjoy that trip without an accompany, but I could try really.

To be honest, I am so dependent on my mama that whenever I need to go somewhere, I want her to accompany me - as in always. She's like the one who lights my path, like a lovely guide. Even just in the market or somewhere close by, well I can still do it alone but going with Mama is what I prefer. I mean, a 29-year-old woman who can't do anything alone without someone by her side? Yes, this is me. Sorry, man. Well, I can do it if I choose to - I mean, if I really push myself to do so.

But it'll be harder at first. I need to convince myself first to take the first step, and mind you, I have to fight first with myself about whether to go or not, and it'll be good if I come to the decision to go. But, seriously, the chance of me going out there to have fun is actually lower than if I just stay at home and enjoy the hotel where I will be staying. I mean, why did I even accept it right if I will not enjoy it? But we'll never know - I might actually pull this off without facing any problems (人 •͈ᴗ•͈), lol.

And with that said, I will be very happy if someone here would hand me a ticket to Japan, or Korea, or maybe Paris, right now, and with the good news that I was gifted an all-expenses-paid trip in any of those countries, lol, and maybe with a little pocket money. Like, so I could try, you know, haha.

Okay, kidding aside, lol. So yes, I will accept it wholeheartedly even though I have to spend the holiday alone in that unknown country - and without even one familiar person in there. And, although it would be hard for me because it's a new place for me, I will try any other means necessary for that trip to be more enjoyable. Maybe I'll try to be more outgoing while in that country, doing things I've never done before. Or wear clothes that I never really tried before - maybe some sexy backless dress during winter - hahaha.

And, if ever I miss my family, I can just video call them and share the fun I had while staying there. I'm sure my mother will be very happy if I do that. They really like it when I'm away, and I keep updating them about my whereabouts, you know. That's how much they love me, hihi. And doing this will make me feel less lonely, especially since I can still see their faces even though I am away enjoying an all-expenses-paid vacay (≧▽≦).

And I will also accept this because that would be my first out-of-country trip, and really, I also want to visit other places - not just the places here in our province. Even once you know, I will fill my phone storage with a lot of photographs as evidence that it is really not a dream and that it is actually real. I was a kid when I first dreamed of going to a different country, but nothing ever happened. So it would be a dream come true too if I ever received that once-in-a lifetime gift - IF EVER! Lol.