A terrible one but blessing in disguise after all.

There are many times when things would not work in our favour and it is at that time we try to lack the patience and understanding that sometimes, what happened may be a delay to something better that may come forth later. Those who can exercise patience will come to understand later when they start to see why such a thing happened in the past. I have always been relieved and assured of the best whenever I remember an adage that says: "A leaf will not drop down from the tree without God's knowledge", meaning God knows and understands everything.

When my mom died some years ago, I thought it was a wicked thing because I never thought of becoming a motherless child, but after many years of her death and just recently, my big sis started realising some hidden things and while she was telling me, I realised that it was for our best today and for mom's best too because things could have been worse for everyone while trying to find means of making her healthy; God does not want us to keep spending money which could eventually end in death for her after we might have spent millions and millions of naira.

Well, this isn't where I am heading but to just give a glimpse of how life happens which makes some people question God when bad things occur, not knowing that the best awaits them later. There have been cases of blessings that come in disguise for people and it is only the patient ones that would enjoy it in the end.

Ever since my school decided to release our degree certificate which I had to do my clearance, I have been so excited that I would finally be going for service this year. I was extremely happy because this is a dream I have been looking forward to for years which has finally come. When we were informed that we would be going with the Batch B set, I knew this wasn't a dream because finally, Princess will be wearing her Khaki uniforms to serve her father's land. I was half prepared and half unprepared because of finances. I didn't have enough as I kept trusting God for the best.

My aunts kept asking me for the update which I didn't stop giving to them. I knew they were willing to support too because I didn't fail them with my result. That was what I had in mind, also not fully relying on them because we know man can disappoint anytime.

I did the Nysc registration and was waiting and checking my dashboard daily to know where I would be posted. Three days before knowing my deployed state, I was told that Grandma had given up the ghost. I couldn't believe it as I cried so hard that day because of two things; Grandma was gone, and we wouldn't be seeing her again, the next thing would be to start planning for the burial while halting my service because I wouldn't want to disturb my aunts and big sis for financial support. Unfortunately, I was moved to stream 2. My plan was that, if I was deployed in stream 1, I would try to go camping so I could have time for Mama's burial, but I got moved to stream 2 which clashes with Mama's burial and the orientation camp.

I was devastated at some point because I already bought all the items to take to camp and was prepared. When it has happened, I felt it was a terrible one because my mind had been on going to camp with Batch B stream 1 and as God would have it, He planned everything making me realize that His plan is always the best and that we humans can only plan but God's will will be done. My sisters were sad about this change of event but I was the one who had to calm them down, assuring them that the next batch won't pass me by. Thankfully, I got to realize that God had worked it out for me so that by the time I go in November, there would be financial support from my family and there wouldn't be any issue by then.

This is a blessing in disguise for me because right now, I have to work hard while saving the little I can now before November. Grandma's burial is gone and before then, things would have been good for those who are willing to support me, of course, not putting my whole mind on anyone so as not to be disappointed or expecting too much from anyone. God has planned our lives except in some rare cases where we are the architect of whatever we allow to happen in our lives. Also, they say when things happen this way, it is fate.

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