One day at a time

This might seem like a sad post and maybe it is, I just don't see it as one, to me, this is me motivating myself instead.

_{photo by Massimiliano Sarno}

Recently I've been going through some stuff and I know it's life, we can't always have the good stuff all the time without experiencing the bad stuff every now and then, I know that.. It's just that I'm not always used to having the bad stuff especially when I can't see a way out of it.

You see, I've always been that guy who always thinks three/four steps ahead before getting into any situation. That doesn't mean that doing that helps me to exactly predict whatever outcome that may happen in the future, it just keeps me prepared enough in a way where whatever the outcome may be, it won't have a disastrous effect on me.

Unfortunately, it hasn't been like that for me lately and each time I try to think three/four steps ahead, I end up seeing nothing at all, almost like there's no way out, and that scares me.

But then a couple of days ago, I sat down outside and my friends could clearly see that I wasn't exactly in a good mood, so this guy had walked up to me and asked if everything was alright. Now usually in this type of situation, I would tell him that I'm fine just so that he could leave me alone because I'm not the type of guy who likes to tell people about his problems.

I've gotten so used to being the guy who helps people to solve their own problem, that its become very hard for me to open up to them and really talk to them about what may be troubling my mind.

But then there was something about the way this guy had approached me that just made me feel like I could trust him, so I went ahead told him a couple of things...nothing too deep or detailed, I just scratched the surface of the entire situation while explaining, and I remember he had looked at me that day and told me not to worry too much about it, and that instead, I should learn to live life one day at a time.

Not this might not be something new to you guys, but for someone like me who's always used to thinking ahead to make sure that I see everything moving in a straight line for me, living the day as it comes surely is something new to me..

And although I don't totally enjoy how uncertain things are currently for me (because I can't predict it no more), living life a day at a time has surely taken away that burden of always trying to think ahead all the time.

That is why for this current situation I have on my hands, all I'm just focusing on is how to get to the end of the day, today.