Hello dear community, today I come to tell you about my recent breakup, which occurred on February 14 of this year. I had not had the courage to write to you, and even less encouragement. It was a very intense and painful process the first few days.

I contextualize a little, I was dating or sharing with a guy who is a neighbor. For a year I shared with him, but it was something more casual, there was no commitment, nor did he ever upload a picture of me in his networks, nor did he show me. But as I was not ready for that either, since I was coming from a separation with the father of my children, I gave in, and I was satisfied.

However, my dissatisfaction in that relationship was growing, I had two months where I did not feel full with his devotion, my intuition told me that there was someone else. I asked him about it, I told him about it. I always had the option of having an open relationship, where we could have fleeting encounters with other people. In order to avoid infidelity, because the desire for others will always be present.

His answer to these proposals was always no and no. I no longer felt him present when he was with me, he was gone, there was no full surrender. So I felt the need to leave him, I did it several times, he looked for me and we came back, he said there was no reason to separate. Until the devaluation, rejection, disinterest, indifference on his part was too much that I ventured to check his cell phone.

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It was horrible the way I found out that I was not the only one in his life. It is such a heartbreaking feeling, an immensely deep pain, it was not something casual, nor fleeting, it was already a parallel relationship. Wow what hard days I had, I didn't sleep for 2 days, I didn't eat, I drank whiskey until drunkenness allowed me to fall asleep. I was shocked by the deception.

He had always told me that he would be incapable of hurting me, that he would tell me the day he was with someone. But that sincerity never came. And those words still ring in my ears, I now doubt each and every one of the stories he told me.

Gradually I went back to sleep, on the 5th day my appetite appeared in me. I am still in mourning, rebuilding myself, healing. I know what I am worth, what I deserve and what I want. And being with him is not, although this decision has made me see the darker shadows I have, anger, rage, hurt.

My advice is that if you don't feel good in a place or with someone, listen to yourself, the soul knows and feels when something is happening, intuition doesn't lie either. It would have been easier to listen to me and walk away. But I am not perfect, I had to see what I intuited to be able to say goodbye. I hope you liked my confession, I wrote until now because the pain has diminished and I see my rebirth from the ashes of the breakup.

Thank you very much for your attention

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