Meeting Me

Growing up in an Asian household, I got my fair share of lovestories, telenovelas- where the hero/ heroine will fall in love, on the process make changes in their counterpart's appearance or life, then they will live happily ever after. Case in point if you are from the Philippines and grew up in the 90s: Betty La Fea, Marimar, Jezebel, Mara Clara and other similar stories on print or TV. People used to binge watch them, fall in love and sometimes hope that same things happen to them in their daily lives.

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I did prayed and hoped that someday, I am going to meet a person who will love me for me, make my life better and improve some aspects of my life. It did not happen. I was very disapppointed and hurt. Or if you want to take my optimistic side: That person hasn't arrived yet.

It started with me giving more chance to do what I love most- reading. I had always been passionate about this hobby as I had been doing this since I was a child. I discovered that I felt calmer, at ease and, I got more empathy for me. It feels like coming home and meeting the best version of me.

I had always been made to feel that I am different, special. But, I found out that I am no different than any of you. I just haven't been with people who have the same convictions as me. Three months onto this journey and, I can see a lot of changes in me: I do not feel isolated- as I get to know people on line; I do feel more alive than I did before. I feel like the person that I have been waiting to meet had finally arrived: ME.

If I would have known that Reading will take me back to where I feel more at home and introduce me to the best version of me, I would have done this a long time ago.No one knows how to listen, understand or love me more than others. No one knows exactly where I am coming from, what I want, my goals, hopes and dreams better than me.

Don't waste time hoping for that right person or event to arrive or happen. You just might be that person you are waiting for.