I Feel Something Different, I Wonder if Time is Moving Faster Now?

We are running after the relentless time. How quickly another year has passed.

Life is so short! Time flies by so fast..

Accustomed to hearing such sentences from my elders, I now realize how often I use these sentences.

I remember when I was a child, I used to wear my older sisters' clothes and secretly put on make-up to make myself look older. I liked to spend time with older people, not with my peers. Whenever anyone asked my age, I would always say one more than my age:)

People in their twenties seemed very old to me at the time. (I don't accept that my younger sister, who is now 22, has grown up : )

I wanted to grow up as soon as possible, to get out of childhood.
When I was a child, time seemed to move so slowly that it was as if I would never grow up.
Now I look back, it was actually not time that was passing, but my endless energy.

Time moved very fast, it made me grow up, and as I grew up, it put burdens on my shoulders.

Some of them I was able to bear, some of them I was buried under.
Sometimes I was deceived. I fell, I got up.
The time that didn't pass when I was little, I can't catch it now, I can't get enough of it.
I live this life running to spend every minute better.

It is as if my life span is getting shorter and there are so many things I still want to do.

Sometimes I get tired of running, I get bored, I look back again and the feeling of having finished another year like I felt today warns me to speed up again.

First of all, I'm getting older but I'm not scared.

I'm putting my feet more firmly on the ground. I've learned to cope better with the responsibilities placed on my shoulders.

I've shelved my efforts to try to understand people.

I learned to accept everything and everyone as they are in this life.

Most of all, I realized that I have to live for myself.

Until this time, I thought more about the people I loved than myself. I always lived to see how they could be better.

I postponed my own plans, I tried to make all the decisions in my life in a way that would affect the people I loved the least. I was in an effort to keep everything around me under my control. I had taken on the task of being the control mechanism of the family. This mechanism thought of everyone and everything but itself.

The pride I felt when I saw their achievements gave me more and more power.

In the end, it exhausted me.

Do I regret doing this?

No, I don't regret it, I'm glad I did it.

If I hadn't, I wouldn't have been so aware that now I have to live more for myself!

We all have a story. The ones we can share and many more hidden inside us.

No matter what, we have to be aware of what we have right now!

If I can convey to you what I feel today, if my fingers can press the keys of my keyboard, if what comes to my mind can move me and turn into tears...

If I love and am loved,

When I call the people I miss, I can hear their voices,

When the memories of those I lost are in my heart and in my dreams,

I am healthy and I have so many good reasons to live this life!

Let the world turn, let time flow, let us leave beautiful traces for those who come after us..

Merry Christmas Hive!

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