My Highschool Love Story
I only understood about the truth of life now that I got older. In fact, I just learned that not all things will go according to plan; You cannot have those things just because you wanted them desperately. And yeah, no matter how you love someone so much it doesn’t mean she or he will love you back.
I have this story from long ago, it was way back in my highschool days and the time where the thought of falling in love with her was only the reason for my existence. She was the reason for my happiness and yeah, she was one of the reasons why I’d love to go to school. It’s funny how stupid or maybe foolish I was when I think about the past. Well, I think we all are because it just reminds us today how naive we were when still young. To understand clearly, the story goes like this.
It was during my elementary days, grade 5th year when I laid my eyes on her. She caught me, I was like a fish being caught in the net and became imprisoned in my one-sided love towards her.I was not a stalker of course but when accidentally I saw her at the front walking with the same street as me. I couldn’t help myself but wishing to be beside her and walked her home. I was still young, maybe 10 years old maybe but I’m already like this, think in advance. You could already tell how my imagination created fairy tales stories with her together. I was fully aware of what it was like but still it made me happy. How could I not when just to see her or to hear her voice was called it a day.
2 years passed so fast that the graduation day arrived. I thought I wouldn’t see her anymore since she was not originally living in our hometown. My fear of not seeing her just felt short when I glimpsed at her in highschool. Yes, we were in the same school but not in the same class. I was okay with it since I knew to myself that I wouldn’t be able to move if I was by her side. My one-sided love towards her continued and then grew. Even just watching at her or looking at her from a distance.
After a year, nothing could ever replace my happiness of what just happened. I was moved to a different section where she was there. Yes, we became classmates unexpectedly after dreaming continuously to be with her in secret. It was childish of me but that’s me, that’s how I became inspired to go to school almost everyday. But once again, she didn’t know how strongly my love was for her. We didn’t talk much since being goofy or friendly with her was hard for me. I thought I was not worthy to be her friend. That’s why even though we were classmates, the distance we had for each other was still the same.
I found my tears were falling slowly and silently when I learned that she was in a relationship with a friend. Even though I was hurt by it I accepted defeat right away. Not because I saw them as a good couple or a perfect one together; Simply because I saw myself not worthy of her beauty. I even thought of the song “Beauty and the Beast” if we would be together. She’s like an angel and I was like a devil and our love would be impossible. There might be a spark but only because of the friction when my heart couldn’t stop from beating to be with her.
Flood from my unending tears drowned me. I shamelessly confessed my feelings towards her and got rejected. It was on my birthday during my 3rd level of highschool when my friends and I drank ourselves. They were so close to her that calling her would be easy. I was not ready when she arrived and my friends gave us space to talk. I didn’t know what to do that time, without many words I told her right away how much I loved her. I couldn’t look at her directly, only her voice was enough to bleed me.
I didn’t regret what I did. I waited for how many years and I wanted to let it out. Although it was an expected answer, it was still painful hearing and learning that she didn’t say “Yes.” I mean, how it would not be when loving her was the only thing that made me happy during those days. Still, I accepted the answer and made myself move forward. We became friends after but the gap between us was still there. It’s not that I did still love her but I still considered her as a special one in my life. It was a complete defeat but left me an unforgettable experience of feelings how love was back then.
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Paul was born in Macrohon, Southern Leyte but currently living in Cahayag, San Francisco Southern Leyte. He graduated the course of a BS Mar-E or Bachelor of Science in Marine Engineering in 2019. Although writing is his passion so instead of sailing he decided on writing.
He writes occasionally about random stuff he would see in the outside world. He loves to express what he feels through writing because he's not good at speaking personally.
He also writes fictional stories and emotions because he thinks life matters. He is hoping that his words could reach someone who might be feeling down.
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In every age in life, we have things we admire and very much want to do at that age, and nothing else will ever be important to us except that thing we want to do, you love her but she rejected you, that's something almost everyone has encounter in love, but others right there was ready to love you, but loving her also has something good because, she makes you go to school everyday.