It's Not About My Fears, It's About Me

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No doubt, every human has fears and of course their strength and weaknesses. A human with no fear must be an immortal or looking for death because sometimes fear comes in because one doesn't want to loss his or her life.

I was wanting to just list out my fears in writing as required but I realized one thing just some minutes before I started writing... Is it really about my fears?

Almost every person may give the same answer to the question "Our fears are a major part of us and so it is about our fears". Well, I do have a different answer to that because I've come to learn that "My fear comes when I become vulnerable or I let the wrong thoughts come to mind". I can't control totally what goes into my mind so fear must surely come.

But then, I can decide how that fear works in my mind so it isn't really about the fears that come to me but about how I handle those fears that they don't seem like fears anymore.

I'm not saying I don't get too scared sometimes because of my fears, I'm saying I know very well that having fear that are uncontrollable is a complete waste of time and I'm still working towards making those fears as nothing.

One of my fears is "Not being able to reach my potentials"

So many things are threats to me not being able to reach my potentials and I believe I have a lot of them unrevealed. I've heard and seen a lot of people who couldn't reach their potential even when it was obvious that they had too many of them to make great names and even have great effect on the society.

For some, fear of trying could be the reason like myself for not reaching their potentials but not only that. Untimely death, severe sicknesses and other unforeseen circumstances could be reasons for not achieving much. I have these fears too but I do know most of it aren't what I can control myself... I can only pray about them and keep living.

It isn't about the fears of not reaching my potentials, it's about me taking every day and time as an opportunity to get something done towards achieving them. Even I don't know how far I can go but with my mind set on going as far as I can, this fear won't stop me from achieving them.

I want to be able to settle my bills and even for others, I want to go as far as I can in my studies, I want to keep trying new stuffs... All in the process for me to reach my potentials because I fear that I won't be able to reach them.

Another fear I do have is "Making the wrong decisions"

This is something I am faced with daily... like everyday comes with a new situation for me to make a decision that would determine how my next days would be. I'm not a good decision maker and I know it's because of my fears.

I'm not putting the blame on my fears, it's on me that I don't learn from some of my past wrong decisions to make better and right decisions now. There was a time I made the right decision (I knew it was the right decision because every other thing that happened after was in my favour and didn't hurt anyone).

So I'm saying I know when I make the right decision and not just because of the result I get from the decision but because I fought through my fears a lot to make that decision... It's never easy when I want to make a right decision.

My decisions play a big role for me to achieve my goals, meet my potentials, marrying the right man and make heaven at last. The fears are just there to fuel my desire to get to there.

What are your fears? Is it about the fears or about you? I want to hear from you in the comment section.

I'll also like to invite @hopestylist to join in the campusgistars weekly engagement.