The horrible week was here!

One of the things about being a woman is that it’s a lot harder to workout during certain period in the month. While I did my best to consistently workout, I had insane cravings that I tried to curb but failed. During this time, it was also the time when my sleep was all over the place, I felt a little bloated too and what I was eating wasn’t as strict as the previous 3 weeks. The good part is that I had more food that was pretty diverse and made up the things that I haven’t had while I was on a pretty strict eating plan.

Throughout the week, I was complaining that working out feels a lot harder and it was the reason I didn’t burn calories that I’d like in a week. I was eating a lot more but still managed to get it under at least 3000 calories. There was a day when I was eating more than 2500 calories esp the peak of my cravings. It was a bad move because I’ve been consistently losing 1kg with pretty rigorous exercise that even that, the total is only around 4000 - 3000 calories burned/week

Daily, I was only burning around 300 calorie and that too from 20 HIIT exercise with low impact Aerobics for 10 minutes. Technically, if I want to really speed up everything, that is to do a 120 minutes aerobic low impact workout daily which will create around 1000 calories burned. This is something I am going to do this week by splitting the workout into 3 session. Since I need to do other things too in life and working out 120 minutes isn't that realistic in one go.

At the same time, I can’t reduce what I am eating because it’s already too little and I’d feel more miserable. So, I would rather add more intensity to my workout than sacrificing the amount of food I had since they are already way too little as during my strict days, I am eating around 1200-1500 cal/daily.

You can see from my tracker over above that I skipped some of my good habits. Even reading was pretty difficult and I was only finishing one book by Cal Newport titled Deep Work. I read them about an hour a day and that was the only time I managed to do so. Maybe it was a great rest in hindsight ?

I certainly get a little discouraged but knowing that I’ve made it this far by being the lowest weight since forever, it’s been amazing journey and motivated not to quit. I am still a little far from where I need to be. At the same time, the 90 days period isn’t over yet. There are almost 62 days to go and there’s plenty of time to lose even more weight and improve my overall personal development journey.

Someday though, time feels stopped and it feels longer but some days 28 days ago feels like yesterday. Anyhow, I am proud of myself to have stuck through this journey day and night. I know myself that once I put my mind into something, it’s going to work out. The challenges I’ve felt like are other obstacles that I needed to win.

While the scale stagnates, I am still thankful to have lost a lot of weight, I read a lot of insightful books and I’ve been really pretty productive. So, I’ll trust my own journey this time. I’ve been influenced by what others told me what to do, act, and dream. Now, I am making sure that I am doing everything by my own conviction and for me.

If it were the old me, I would have quit the moment I saw the scale doesn’t budge.

If it were the old me, I would have quit the moment it was comfortable to just eat and do nothing.

If it were the old me, I would have quit the moment it gets a little too tedious and harder to workout.

If it were the old me, I would have been so discouraged talking about my stagnant progress and would quit it altogether.

So, the fact that I am even journaling this and putting it out there is my win this week!