Twinkle-Twinkle Little Star, Do You Know How Loved You Are?!

Hello, Hivers!

Today allow me to share with you random thoughts that occupy my mind lately. Living my life away from my baby is like I am always looking for the missing piece of the puzzle every day and I know the image can never be completed. The lacking piece leaves a burning emptiness within me that only she can put out. I'm glad I have my Mama and younger sister to take good care of her while I am here in the city, earning a living, so I am very much relieved and thankful.

Lately, I cannot stop thinking about how days fastly go on and on. It's so amazing how this tiny little soul, grew from such a tiny part, to become this beautiful being. Those two pink lines, that at first, let me cry fearful tears every night, were my first signs of her. The one I can't imagine life without.

My first glimpse of her inside my tummy. ♥️

It felt like it was only yesterday when I got so emotional when I first saw her through ultrasound and the first time I heard her heartbeat. And from that day on, I never felt alone. I knew a little human was growing inside me and I knew I had to be extra careful with myself because from that day on, it sank in me that we both shared one body, and I had to gently protect her until she came out.

December 24, 2021 was when she finally came out. It was my most beautiful first glimpse of her.

And now it's been seven months already. Seven beautiful months. I hate how days passed by so quickly that holding her in my arm as a newborn slipped through my fingers in the blink of an eye. She is growing so fast.

From her first month, where her many "firsts" were the lovely tiny pieces that tie the knot between the "me" before her to being officially a mother, her mother.

The first time I was able to produce milk after 8 days of giving her birth and the first time she latched on me.

The first time I saw her smile.

And then two months beautifully passed. Two months filled with morning cuddles and gigil. Two months of pure love and overwhelming happiness.

The first time that the dress I made for her fits her.

And fast forward to three months. I had a heavy heart knowing that three months passed and it meant that my maternity leave was over and I had to go back to work.

Thank God for the internet today that I was still able to witness (tho not face to face) her milestones even if I am away.

The first time she was able to hold up her head without support.

The first time she was able to roll over onto her tummy.

And just like that, 4 months passed. My Star is growing more beautiful each day. She was like a curios mermaid slowly wagging her tail, swimming and exploring the vast ocean of discoveries, splashing joy in our lives.

And then five months. We were reunited because they went to spend one month of summer vacation.

I could never be happier, holding my little darling again. ♥️

And so they say time flies when you're having fun, was so damn true. They had to go back home to the province already. And then she turned six months.

This month was her first time eating solid food. My mama gave her a carrot-flavored Gerber and at first, it seems that she did like its sour and slightly-bland flavor. The next day Mama gave her banana-flavored Cerelac and she liked so much its sweet flavor.

How does it taste dear? Let her face tells you the answer. 😅

The hilarious expression on her face when she was given rice porridge with fish soup. She obviously did not like the taste. Haha!

And this is also the amazing month that she was finally able to crawl. She's becoming more mischievous every day all eyes should be on her always.

And then, she turned seven months.

I could never thank God enough for her. I must have done something great in my past life to ever deserve her.

And she can already sit with proper support. And starting to say the word "Mama" that sweetly plays music to my ear.

As much as I wanted to stop the hands of time from ticking and freeze the moment for her to be forever this little, I know there was no way for it to be possible. She is growing day by day. I might not be able to hold her forever in my arm, but I'll be holding her in my heart forever.

My dearest Star,
Thank you for twinkling brightly in my entire universe. I wish you knew how loved you are. ✨

Love always,
Mama

P.S.
Please don't grow up so fast my love.