A Gloomy Christmas

Happy Friday Hivers!

Cold feet and hands, palpitations, and shortness of breath – that is what I have been feeling recently due to the challenging situations our extended family has recently faced.

My sister-in-law and I were at the hospital last week to attend to her mother, who is in critical condition. Her mother has been hospitalized for almost a month already. As we arrived, I saw her mother lying in bed, her body swelling, and appearing very helpless. In a few minutes, my brother informed us that our aunt (my father's sister) had passed away.

Surrounded by many sick people, I was unable to control myself. I almost lost consciousness looking at those sick people and hearing the bad news.

I tried to compose myself so that everyone in the room wouldn't notice. I just smiled at them, but deep inside me, I was not okay. Anxiety struck me at that moment, but I fought against it because I don't want anxiety to take over my life.

Since May of this year, my aunt's health has been deteriorating. Two weeks ago, her condition became unstable, and eventually, her body gave up.

We all know that death is something we can't avoid, but what we don't know is when it will happen. If we could choose when we die, probably no one would choose on or before Christmas.

With my father, I went to her funeral. While there, I assisted my 82-year-old aunt. I was surprised by what she told me. She said she had been asking God for death because she was tired, but to her surprise, her 69-year-old younger sister passed away first. Life is truly unpredictable.

Honestly, I haven't felt any excitement to celebrate Christmas this year. There's a person dear to me who is fighting for her life, and my cousins are grieving. I have no plans yet for this Christmas.

How are your preparations for this upcoming holiday season, dear Hivers?

Thank you for reading and see you on my next blog. Cheers!

Watch with glittering eyes the whole world around you because the greatest secrets are always hidden in the most unlikely places.