The trials of motherhood

Hello hivers,

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Early this morning I woke up with a teary eye. I couldn't explain what happened to my right eye because I slept with no pain or any itchy eyes. I woke up and realized that I was tearing up and I couldn't sleep anymore. This was around 1 am in the morning. I went into the bathroom to wash my face hoping that it would stop but it didn't.

I came back to the room and prayed to feel better. As I didn't know what else to do at that moment. It was as if some sand particles were inside my eye. The more I blinked, the more tears ran down my cheek. Few minutes later, my baby woke up to latch. I had no choice than to feed her. She fed for some minutes and didn't want to go back to sleep. My husband tried to carry her so I can get some sleep but she didn't want him to carry her. She wanted to be in my arms.

I was not comfortable with that but then, it was still late in the night and I didn't want her to cry so much. So I carried her whilst she slept on my body. I couldn't sleep too. My husband asked me to go dip my face into a bowl of water making sure that I opened my eyes very well for the water to enter into it. Since my baby didn't want him to carry her, I carried her and did as he suggested. I felt a little bit better. I stopped tearing up but I could still feel the particles.

I decided to check google for a solution. I did and saw the same therapy my husband suggested but with cold water instead. Thankfully, my baby let her dad carry her this time. I used the cold water therapy and immediately, I got relieved and didn't feel those sandy particles anymore. I was super glad. But another problem was that I couldn't sleep anymore. I was awake till 5 am. When I finally started feeling sleepy, my baby woke up. This time she was fully awake and was up playing. I couldn't sleep anymore.

As if she knew what she was doing, she wanted me to play with her. I felt so bad because I so desired the sleep badly. But there was nothing I could do at that moment. My girl wanted me,I had to be there for her. But on a second thought, why did it look like she knew what she was doing? Like she is deliberately doing this stuff to me.

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Motherhood is not a joke. I haven't slept till now because she just naps for 15 minutes and that's it. Does anyone have a solution to make her sleep for long this night so I can rest? I am having a bad headache and I know it is because I haven't slept well too. I need this sleep badly right now. I will be glad to hear from you all.

Thank you for reading and sharing some useful tips too.