The unknown peak i experience in my dream//5 Minutes freewrite

She has moved slowly away: relunctantly, it seems to me, I never knew this could Happen since I have given her all of me, but it seems nothing I have ever done that was enough, I wonder in which kind of life i am living, when I could not simply get what I want, i Wish to cry but tears are hard in my eyes to come by, i pray for yet another turn to Make a new choice yet my hair's has already grown white.

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Then I understand that, i do not have to be sad and all alone by myself all the times, this has Happened to me not a time but from times to times, I rather see this fate as my life but what I would never believe is that, this was my life, I thought maybe I have makes a wrong choice and it gets me to this, I have always wish I could have back the time again to make things right in making another choice but the clock is always on the move.

The Peak of it was when I could not bear to take it anymore and I began to cry, but tears were just tears, they could not help in, in anyway but to keep on making my heart pump and hang in so many places. "When we are face with hurt, what we need which can make our feelings surrender is our companion, when we have the right person's in our life's, our life's would became good and reasonable, Mark's says to me.
"This will always be my prayers everyday, I replied to mark, and not long ago, someone tap on my toes and then, I have to wake up and see the real life i was that nothing of sort was going on, since it was not the same but rather an happy life then I realized what I was going through was just a dream.

I picked up my pen and I continue to write about all the experience in there, which some are still stuck in my head, waiting for the day, they may come again and I would gladly let it out.

This is 5 minutes freewrite by @mariannewest.