I must admit that the first few days I was waiting for the results of the biopsy I was very nervous and hardly slept. The fear of the worst is inevitable in these situations. Many unknowns come to your head and you wonder if you will be able to cope with what is coming, then you try to give yourself hope and end up dealing with the waiting time.

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In my case, the days didn't seem to end because of some inconveniences that delayed the results. It was difficult, but I did not despair and I armed myself with patience, I focused on other vicissitudes that I had to face at that moment and I understood that what comes in the long term will have its time and there is no need to worry about it.

The day came and I would finally know the truth; on the way to the appointment, I felt the peace of the Creator fill me and I felt calm. I was also comforted by the presence of my faithful companion and fiancé Jesus. When we arrived there was no one there, so we were able to go straight to the consultation.

I walked into the office and the gynecologist (Who is a great friend of the family) looked calm. That helped me a lot and she explained to me that while it was a great relief to know it was not cancer, my cervical lesion could if left untreated, will become invasive cancer. The latter scares me a little since I know what this disease implies from previous experiences; but I must stick to the treatment she gave me and if we do it to the letter we will have good results, God willing.

This news worried Jesus and my relatives a little, although they are relieved that there is a solution and that it was detected in the time since it is in phase one. The treatment was scheduled for a month from now since certain conditions must be met to perform the procedure.

This experience led me to reflect and I realized that Sofia played an important role in my diagnosis unintentionally. If it hadn't been for her arrival, I might have had this injury detected too late. Because to be honest, I was so preoccupied with other things that I had completely forgotten about my health. Pregnancy prompted me to get checked and it was detected, but you know what? This is not the way it should have been.

It is important to go to the doctor periodically and not to let your guard down because you never know what may be going on in your body. I am aware that the situation in my country is difficult, but from time to time you have to make the effort. We have to love and take care of ourselves, to love and care of others. I felt very bad for not giving myself the love I deserved and I asked for forgiveness from myself. This is something that should not happen again and it is my goal to learn to take care of myself more and more every day.

When I left the office I wondered if the patients waiting after me would feel the same way I did. They were all going through similar situations and were waiting for the results of a biopsy. I wish them with all my heart that it is nothing serious. No one should have to go through something like this.

I am very grateful that I am not going through this process alone. I have God, my family, and my friends supporting me. I will never be able to repay them for what they have done for me.

I have even received praise for being so brave and the truth is that I am afraid, but as I told those who complimented me, I will never forget my mother's experience with her disease and the words of her oncologist when he told us that "stress and worries are the number one enemy of disease", so although it is inevitable to feel fear or anxiety I have tried to be calm and I have fought with all the feelings and thoughts that go through my mind.

In the meantime, I'm still here enjoying my family life. I don't focus on the bad that happens, but on the good, because that gives me strength and motivates me to keep going. I feel I am in a race for my health and I hope to reach the finish line and enjoy my prize with God's favor, which is to have many more years of life with the ones I love and to teach my daughter what care, love, and respect for oneself are all about. I feel victorious even though I have not finished running because one adversity does not overshadow all that I have achieved.

I hope you liked my post, you can leave your comments and suggestions at the end of this post. I am glad to be able to share with you after such a long time; it is a pleasure to write again. Greetings and a big hug. See you next time.

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Resultados de la biopsia y reflexiones