Broody and Blessed

It’s been a month since my hens stopped laying eggs, and now they’re broody again. Sigh. “Merida (almost white one), Apeng(the black one), what’s going on with you two?” I mutter as I approach the coop. These two are notorious – just cruel creatures when they're broody, puffing up like they own the place, but I can’t deny they’re reliable in producing healthy chicks.

As I bend down to check the nest, Merida fluffs up her feathers and glares at me like I’m about to steal her babies. “Oh, come on, Merida. We’ve been through this before. I’m just looking.”

Apeng isn’t much better, making her little warning noises, half a growl, half a cluck. I laugh, shaking my head. “You’re not fooling anyone, Apeng. You’re just as bossy as Merida.”

I lift the three eggs nestled under them. “Now, whose eggs are these?” I scratch my head. Haha, I laugh to myself. That’s how I am. I only remember who the productive ones are.

I pause, thinking. It’s funny how easily I forget which hen belongs to which egg, but here’s the thing—God doesn’t forget about me, even when I can get so useless. In my own eyes, anyway. "Yeah, He’s not like me," I say aloud. "I mean, if I found you two flawed, you’d be slaughtered." Apeng gives a sharp squawk, and I wince. "Okay, okay, I didn’t mean it literally, but you know what I mean!" I laugh again.

It’s been a while since I’ve posted something like this. Honestly, I’ve been rebelling. I got overwhelmed with so many things, and to deal with it, I numbed myself. Just about everything. I let anger take control, let hate after hate pile up, until it exhausted me.

But, as I said, God remembered me. He didn’t forget. He took care of me, even when I couldn’t see it. I’ve had to accept defeat – and you know what? I’m okay with that. Like the song says: Only in losing, you win.

Merida lets out a long, loud cluck, as if to say, “You’re getting sentimental again.” I grin, “Yeah, yeah. But a little sentiment never hurt anyone, right?”

Have a blessed day, everyone. 😊

Ps. It's been almost 3 months since I wrote my last blog and I am grateful for snaps and helped me get back to this.

I still feel welcomed and I'm grateful.

My photo was edited via Phonto, text on photo. Made a collage of pictures taken, of course.☺️