The Hopes of Fighting PCOS to become a Mother

Hi, Hive and Motherhood community!

I've been active on other social media sharing my story about my pregnancy and motherhood journey writing in a short form. Well, why not share it here on Hive as I love to write in long form?

Here is a timeline of how I found out about my PCOS.

My mother died of cervical cancer in February 2019 and I got scared about it. I went to see my doctor in April 2019 for a general check-up and to find out if I was capable of being pregnant at the age of 30. The ob-gyne and I made a joke that I should get pregnant right away so that I could see my offspring. After a week, I found out that I had PCOS. I never took any medications as I had accepted the fact that it would be difficult for me to get pregnant.

After a few days, I had to fly to Bali to see my then-boyfriend now husband. I shared the sad news with him about PCOS. We decided to enjoy nature, swim every day, and don't think about problems.

In May 2019, we started having arguments that something was wrong with my body. I had my what-ifs, what if I was pregnant? We flew to Singapore and the argument was on and off. The same when we arrived in Palawan. I thought that we were going to break up but I was ready. I felt he was toxic and I was getting toxic, too.

The last few days of June 2019, we were in El Nido, Palawan. I felt so sick. I thought I was just being dramatic. I was nauseous.

At the beginning of July 2019, I had a weird dream that I told my deceased parents that I was pregnant. It felt so weird that my dream with my deceased parents felt so real. I woke up and told my then-boyfriend now-husband that I might be pregnant. I called a friend and she told us that we needed a pregnancy test.

In the evening, it was confirmed that positive, 2 lines on the pregnancy test. He was very happy and I was shocked. I didn't cry. Just speechless.

I went back to Cebu in August 2019 to see my doctor. She was shocked and happy to know that finally, I got pregnant. It was like a miracle.

In my birth month, November 2019, I went to Moalboal for a freediving session at 26 weeks pregnant for a maternity photo shoot underwater. My last tropical beach getaway in the Philippines as a pregnant woman.

I arrived in France in the last days of November 2019. The cold weather made me feel uncomfortable.

In February 2020, I gave birth to my son via CS delivery. It was 12 hours of labor but it was an emergency CS as the heartbeat of the baby was getting faster. I thought I would do a normal delivery. My doctor in Cebu told me that I have small hips so it was impossible to have a normal delivery. My son was a healthy baby who weighed 3.7 kg. OMG, he was heavy. I was eating a lot when I was pregnant.

The hopes of fighting PCOS to become a mother

When I shared this story on my FB, some friends who have PCOS told me that my story is giving them hope to be mothers in the future.

I always share that it is okay to let go and accept the fact that we have PCOS. But we need to exercise, to relax our body, and to be healthy. We need to get away from stress. Our body and mind need to be physically and mentally healthy and always be prepared for the unexpected. And voila, life will surprise you to carry a new life in your body.

I hope you enjoyed my story about my pregnancy journey.

I am just confident to share my story here because my kids are both toddlers. It is good to reminisce about what I've been through. I would say I survived.