#Contest 83 My Devastated Moment:Death

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Hello ladies!
Am happy to be part of this week contest tagged it's my first time writing in this community
Thank you @joanstewart for these topic.
"Your most devastated moment and how you coped".

Well,for me 8th August 2021 was my devastated day.
In my entire life since I was borned have never witness the sight of death,I mean none of my love ones have died before,my family are complete
Haven't attended anyone burial before in my entire life.

My grandma was so dear to you,we always feel her present and anything she is around us we feel that motherly love,we were fond of her,if we go to school and come back we stayed with her infact we technically lived with her especially when my mum was seriously sick and down to the earth to was always there for us and I never wishec she could die anything soon.

Grandma visited us on the last week of July entering August,she was sound and healthy she didn't stay long tho but we pleaded her but she said no she have to take care of her son that's my uncle who is blind.so my daddy took her home.

On the 7th of August which was Saturday we decided to pay her a weekend visit we played, gisted, laughed,dance we ate and slept.In the early hours of that Sunday morning which was the 8th of August around 5am my grandma was shouting and screaming that people are too much on her and someone like me has never seen this moment before since she was my dad's mum,my dad was called and he rush there we were all crying grandma was shouting, screaming I was in my worst state of mind then,I was seriously devastated
I was like I hope she doesn't die,I even asked myself is this how death comes
Well too many questions without answers.For some hours she was ok and revived but we all were throwed to the state of confusion we started praying my daddy left home to prepare for Church.
We were still crying when it was 9pm on a dot my grandma breathe her last air.i was shocked,mad, confused, devastated like I don't even know the right words to express how I was,it was like I was seeing a movie of someone dying but it was real, remember I said this was my first time of seeing someone die I was lost in thought I was like no nah
I know grandma love playing maybe she is playing as usual when she is done she will wake up not. Until I saw my daddy rush down to the house with teary eyes, haven't seen my dad cry before or even have such a red eyes that was when I knew it's over.
Mhen there was a lot of crying and screaming because that was actually a family house so everyone saw this sad moment
She was taken to the mortuary and I was like God why??
So many unleft questions are still in me.

HOW I COPED.
Well,I must say it wasn't easy like such experience with what I saw ha!!! It took grace to take me from such mess,the funniest thing is that the next day which was Monday I had a very tough exams and I was like how will I be able to cope with such incident and pass my exams
But well I wrote the exams which I know I will pass

So days passed on,I was moody, depressed, devastated, angry etc.i had only one companion which was music, everyday this sorrowful songs flipped through my mind and I will cry uncontrollable.

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I live in the hostel so I had my roommates who were there for me,they made sure everyday there played with me,I had people who loved me and always put that smile on my face.
Little by little we all came over it I must say it was God that was my strength for me I don't think that even now I would have been able to cope but here I am live still goes on😥😰🤧

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