People desire stability in life, and desperately seek for it.

Seeking stability is a primal, spontaneous instinct that wrapped the mind when people do not realize it often even in their entire lifetime.
And one of the top forms of gaining stability is, through stable jobs or to be more precise government jobs.
Which I believe comes at a certain cost. However, they do not realize what is the cost.

But once someone does, once you break this spell, then that is it for you. No turning back to that stability-seeking life.
At this unstable time of era, regardless of the paid price, cannot criticize them for seeking stability over everything.

And in our country, it is almost like a traditional law perhaps mostly practiced in South Asian countries.
The family, society, your Peers everyone will push for it.
Even for marriage, regardless of how handsome your earnings are or how well off the company is, even a lower-class government employee will outstand you to the point of serious family conflict, even if it sounds quite absurd.
Not only that, but in almost every sphere of your adult life, you have to put up and bear a certain impact on the decision of being a government employee or not.

I explained, in brief, the importance and impactful consequences so you can comprehend the extent
Yet, for once, I ever could bring myself to aim for a government job.
And I have been bearing the forthcoming constant aftermaths for a longer time now.

If you ask why?
I might not have any satisfying excuse.

I always felt I do not belong here!

During the time of my study, particularly during my internship. The environment gave off such a monotonous, boring vibe, just didn't seem fun to me!
So, I almost run away, far away from home. Because I knew if I get a government job I'll end up here, or any other place like this somewhere in another city.
The thought of being stuck here for the rest of my life was suffocating.

I yearned for escaping so much, that I found myself a miracle happening right in front of me.

It turned out my career had not started like my seniors because of the certain refugee context that had happened right after my graduation.
Because of that crisis, it somehow had come as a blessing in disguise for me.
Which I just told the other day The miracle to my yearnings
Well!
I have already been experiencing uncertainties, frustrations, helplessness, and every other backfiring emotions and circumstances.
But damn I have for the first time, been living genuinely.
My life in these 5 years is worth, of wasting the precious time of my life until graduation!
I will only do the job I like and I am not changing my road just to go back of the life I hated.

Regardless of the hardships, criticism, peer or social pressure, I am never giving up on this one thing I have worked so hard for.
And that's one promise I made to myself.

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