It Was Beyond My Power

It Was Beyond My Power

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Sometimes when I see people struggling with excess weight I give glory to God for the kind of body I have. I can't tell what the cause is scientifically, I know that I had never experienced any problem that has to do with excess weight.

But for losing weight, I think I have experienced that a lot of times. Some times health challenges hit our weight and one wouldn't have any option than to take it like that. There are a lot of others things that can happen in our lives that can make us loss weight without our consent.

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Adding weight is something one can do deliberately most times but you see, for loosing it is not often deliberate. Although there are cases where one can decide to deliberately loose weight especially when it becomes too much and it's already posing a threat to our health.

My story

Some time around 2019, I graduated from college and I was so happy that I am entering into life. It was all a beautiful moment on that day I wrote my last examination. I never knew that I was going to enter another phase of life that was far from my imaginations.

Few months after graduation, money stopped coming in as usual, demands started coming in from different angles, responsibilities started trooping in and I was not having any reasonable job.

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Soon I arrived at the satge where people from home are now expecting something from me because I am done with school, it is expected that I am now bringing something to the table as well. It was then I knew I am now grown and need to take a bold step.

Life became too hard for me, thoughts upon thought, I was just looking for different ways to earn a living so I could take care of myself and support my family. I took a teaching job and tried to manage for a while.

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The job was very stressful and the pay was low, yet demands kept coming in, every angle I turn to, seem to be demanding. I had no peace, I was just confused and wishing for better days. I really can't tell what I weigh while I was still a student but when I got into that phase of struggling I knew my weight dropped.

Everyone that sees me that time will be like you have slim down, what's happening? see bones on your neck, I would just laugh and shake my head. They won't understand. After that year while I was still struggling to balance, my dad had an accident and passed on.

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I entered into another difficult phase, atleast while he was alive, I know some places were covered but now things have changed, I and my siblings went through a lot. Things changed I won't say for bad because I have seen God's goodness after those trying times.

Those days if you see me you will know that something is wrong, depression ate me up. The little weight I have flew into the thin air.

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Clothes that previously used to tight me suddenly became oversized. i have to make new holes in my belts to adjust it so that it can hold my trousers. It was not funny for me

I didn't choose any of those things. My weight loss was beyond my control. If I had my ways I wouldn't have allowed it. All the food I was eating were just going down for nothing because my mind was not in one place.

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How I Healed

They say time heals all things, I don't agree with that saying fully but in this case, I think it did healed me. With time I forgot about my loss and moved on. I let go of my depression and face life. I doubled hustle and when money started coming in and I had peace of mind. My weight was regained. I don't really know how much I weigh now but believe me, same people are saying Omo, you dey enjoy o ( you are enjoying). LoL! I laugh at them because I know it's not all about the enjoyment alone.

Lessons

When one has peace of mind, weight will come even when you don't invite it. On the other hand even if you have all the money in the world and you eat good food but you don't have peace of mind, forget about weight.

This post was inspired by Hive Learners community weekly prompts, week 66 Edition 01, titled : Weight Gain or Weight Loss. You can check it out.