OPEN LETTER TO JUNIOR ? DAY- Procrastination

Dear Junior,

The last time I wrote to you was 12days ago. And I am ashamed to say that I think I gave in to the laziness impulses that are calling to me everyday. I do have a lot of things I want to talk to you about. So much, but whenever I think to start writing, it seems a wind comes and blows that thought away from my mind and leaves me struggling with other things that I have not attended to.

Today, I decided to finally do all it takes to write to you. In the beginning, I planned to write for 60days non stop, but as it stands I have only written for 27 days in all. I had a lot of initial momentum when I started. I was up for going for 60 days, putting down something, no matter how small. But now, I have gone for 12 whole days without writing anything.

I thought about the whole thing and I knew that if I decide to punish myself, then I may end up repeating the same cycle of procrastination, it has always been that way. If I decide to say, "Oh! I am going to make a commitment from today, it is going to be different this time", I am not so sure that it would really be different. So, I have been thinking, "what exactly is responsible for my procrastination?"

Why do I keep having prolonged days of abstinence from writing. It's not that I don't enjoy writing. In fact, I enjoying writing more than I enjoy seeing patients as a doctor. It is not that writing is boring to me. Or, am afraid of writers block? Nah! I have been training myself to write on any and everything, like the fan in my room right now that is rotating with so much noise and little effect, it makes me ponder that saying that empty barrels make the loudest noise.

Anyways the answer to my question is what I discovered recently, I need motivation to stay motivated. I need to give myself some form of incentive for consistency. At first, that is what is necessary and then at some point I know it would no longer be necessary. But mehn, this is talk, I need to put this into action and see what it produces. I need to take action on what I already know.

Yeah, but that devil is on my left shoulder again. He is telling me that I can start next week, that this week is already gone. I could just use this weekend to enjoy myself.

Please get behind me satan!
I would get my hands on the plough and I will not look back. I would stand up and do the necessary. Oh well, maybe I could write differently if I decide to take some training, If I spend some time learning, I could make my writing better, so I would wait until I have finished learning to write...

Oh no! not again...
I just realized that the devil on my left shoulder has displaced the angel on my right shoulder. Procrastination is now all that is filling my mind. What should I do?

I will figure it out, this fight against procrastination is not over. I am sure of one thing though, I will win this fight. I will not loose to procrastination. My next letters would be proof of that.