Lets Talk About Me Today.

Good evening beautiful ladies.
I had a wonderful but not so wonderful day. Today I’ll love to talk about a few things that have happened to me last week and this week and they have felt very overwhelming and I feel that does not really cut it but I’ll stick to that. So last week Monday everything started out cool, had a normal day then went to the gym in the evening. After my session I got home and I think it started there. Had a horrible headache and it was almost impossible to sleep so I just stayed till the sleep got me and I woke up feeling just there. Not okay, not sick, not happy, not sad just there.

On Friday I finally decided to go for a test since the feeling didn’t get better and was really getting unbearable, apparently I was sick and I didn’t even know. Went to the pharmacy and I got the bills and everything was scheduled to start treatment on Monday so I patiently waited.
Boom sha ga la ga, Friday evening I got my period so the discomfort I was feeling all week wasn’t just from the sickness but this too. My period came and everything went south. The pain, the headache, the discomfort and frustration just fell in and boyyyyyy I felt mentally tired, emotionally too and physically tired.

I’ve never had my period when I’m sick so this whole thing blew me off my feet. I was not prepared, I did not know how to feel or how to act, what will help me cope or make me feel better, I just felt a lot of emotions at once and it is uncomfortable.
My skin would itch and I would feel like puking, my legs would be weak and my tummy would hurt. I had Too much to deal with. Anyways I started getting used to this whole thing today (not used to per se I have just told myself that yes this is it and yes I can’t wave a wand and it’ll go away)

I only put this out here because it barely gets talked about. I mean the amount of discomfort that comes with a period then having to balance it with being sick. Apart from those things happening more like because of what has been happening I have been able to or I have learnt to appreciate the little things around me and also the moments where I really did not get to appreciate the comfort I have. There’s this saying that “you never the true meaning of comfort till you lose it”

The moments where I can easily rest my head, listen to loud music, eat what I want and not have specific cravings, lay on cold sheets and not feel sick all of those were really nice and felt so normal till I could not have them anymore. Funny that I’m the one putting all my discomforts out here but I really needed this. To let it out and allow it to float.
Thank you ladies for reading this and I’m open to hearing tips on how to ease some of these too.

Ps: These pictures belong to me and we’re taken with my mobile device