REMINISCING

So, this piece is a result of not giving in to the voices in my head. It’s not going to be perfect though, and I knew that right from the moment I got lost in my thoughts and still didn’t know what to write. Then, I realized that ‘well,even the year wasn’t perfect’. If this piece was, I would have maybe sugarcoated it too much, or tried to sound too funny. Truth is, I don’t know how to do this but I will try anyway. I don’t know where to start or what to talk about. I almost gave up writing this.

It’s the last day of the year that I thought I didn’t achieve so much in. Thinking deeply about it now, I have so much to be grateful for. I started this year with great enthusiasm and extreme optimism. It is the year I actually believed in the line ‘this year is yours’ and all other positive mantras that comes with the excitement of getting into a new year. In the beginning of this year, I had laid down goals and expectations. I prayed into the new year in fact, I was so pumped and sure that it was going to be an amazing year for me.

Part of the goals I had for the year was getting a digital camera. Well, I wasn’t able to, and honestly, I’m not sad, I will simply try again next year!. I refuse to focus on the things I was unable to achieve, and neglect or be blind to the things that I did achieve. Looking back now, I am grateful for a lot of things. See, truth be told, the year was kinda depressing for me. I had several episodes of mental breakdowns, but guess who’s stronger and still pretty?? Mee!!. And trust me, it does get better eventually.

I feel like I wasn’t able to get extremely productive this year and this doesn’t mean I was idle or something like that, I didn’t push myself like I used to, I just decided to slow down a little, and also breathe and live a little . I realized that I might have been putting too much pressure on myself before, and I just wanted to rest. Although, resting took it’s toll on me, because I wasn’t used to it. I felt empty, unproductive and this made me break down many times. The struggle of balancing pursuing my passion and financial stability also sucked all my energy(Never knew being an adult would be this tedious)

I hope I have not been sounding depressing. Come on! Amazing things happened this year as well. A good friend of mine, Temitayo, bought me a product design course on Udemy and I was extremely excited about it. I remember filing my notepad with epistle, because I couldn’t contain my excitement. I love trying new things out. I was so so happy and grateful for the act of kindness. I am not done with the course yet but completing it and becoming a certified , professional product designer is one of my top priorities for next year.

I found love this year as well, glad I gave room for it. It was unexpected and unplanned but honestly, I wouldn’t change a thing about it.

I found Hive too!! I might not be the best writer on this platform but then personally, I see this platform as a place to grow, explore and be all one wants to be. I am glad I took the step to join, despite all the self doubts. I know I will grow more as time goes on and I am really looking forward to that.

I really haven’t figured it all out, I still have a lot of things I am confused about but I guess I will keep trying. I am grateful for how much I have grown and still willing to grow. Gradually, I am working on putting less pressure of myself (soft life for the win!).

I sure have things I want to achieve next year, but I just realized that all I need to do is to set my mind to it. So, I guess this is where I say ‘Cheers to a better year ahead’. I really pray 2023 brings forth all the good things that life has to offer.

Compliments of the season HIVERS!!!. I wish you an amazing 2023 full of wins❤️❤️❤️