dillEMMA. A series of wrong decisions. What would you have done?
Well I know what I should have done, what would you have done?
Hello Hivers, how are you all today. Hope you're doing great.
In my introductory post I said "I was a sucker for love but not anymore" . Well, anyone who uses that phrase has been hurt before to and extent their reasoning was changed. Some people have had an experience like that.
In your life time there would be someone you've met before that you've loved or feel you love and can do anything for (romantically). For me I met her or I thought I met her, early in school, in university.
In my defence I was YOUNG and very naive.
To me she was perfect, head to toe, her laugh her smile her skin everything, But to her I wasn't and I didn't really know that then.
Before I met her I never thought of anything outside school just my books books books. when I met her I started planning my future and wedding and how ill start making money it was that Bad and I was like
19,funny yeah?
Anyways, we were so close we did everything together,everything. we agreed we liked each other and it was Great!, Then I tried moving forward with her by asking her out and Everytime she said "NO" Every single time.
What was I doing wrong? she just told me she liked so much and she kept repeating it, and I've planned a wedding and had 2 kids in my head. You should see how long we spoke on calls, like we owned the telecom company
It went on and on that's how it was she never agreed. But we kept spending time together and I kept being a Gentleman(boy) and kept being sweet.
finally I decided to get some,man up and stop and move on and everytime she found a way to cry and pull me back.
But come on you won't blame me I went back everytime. I felt I was in love. And don't forget We were married upstairs in my head.
Anyways I left her and met someone else a year after and she was perfect. Kind, caring, religious. But it wasn't like "HER" something was missing.(the friendship I guess)
But I didn't mind I was happy and everything was fine but guess what? "SHE" came back again to pull me back. You know what I did. I left who I was with and went back to her. Unwise yeah? I know.
And when we got back to the situationship it was still the Same old story, it Was frustrating.
So I left again met someone else again. This time there was no turning back, this time If she comes again I would say "No you're not serious and you can't stress me and I've met someone else"
Did she come back? YES, Did i tell her she wasn't serious? NO, Did we remarry in my head YES. And I left who I was with again and went back to "HER".
Even I, was shocked at how unwise I was. Did she leave again?
YES!
What was a her plan?
Well that was the last time it happened Fortunately and I grabbed the bull by the Horn, and what do you say to the God of death. "NOT TODAY!".
Oh, that phrase belongs to Arya Stark. I meant the "God of love", . Turned a blind eye and said "NOT TODAY!" to her and anything that'll make me act unwise like that ever again.
Oh yeah, If you're wondering her name, I hinted it in the Title.
See you next time.