A Letter To Me: Thank You, 2023

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Grateful is the most powerful weapon in life.

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Life is about art. The art of accepting, and living life as best we can. We try, and just have to not give up. Leave the rest to the owner of life itself (Almighty God).

Even when we are in the lowest situation, there is always a way out for those of us who don't give up. Isn't our job just to survive, and not give up by committing suicide? And, it's certainly not easy. Just like art, even though our blood is blessed with talent for it, we must continue to learn to be able to produce our best work. The art of survival.

This is a letter to myself. Maybe it can also inspire you to talk to yourself at the end of 2023.

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I always learn to say grateful to my life. And learn not to say the saddest moments. Because, in this life, moments of sadness are only short compared to moments of beauty in life. It's just that, when people are sad, they tend to think they are the saddest. So, gratitude is the most powerful weapon.

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2023, half a year of our marriage. I was pregnant at that time. But that happiness gave way to sadness. Almost 3 months, the fetus in my womb can no longer hear its heartbeat. And, I was bleeding. I lost my fetus.

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This is the IV mark on my left hand after several days of being hospitalized due to a miscarriage. To be honest, it was the first time in my life that I was on an IV drip and hospitalized.

Instead of lamenting what happened, I recovered from the sad weeks. I look fine from the outside. Although inside me, what was happening was that I was a complete mess. I didn't want to show my sadness to anyone at that time. In my opinion, that would only make things worse. Only with my husband do I share everything.

No pain, no gain. And that proved to be true. My personal experience taught me that.

I learned a lesson from what happened to me. The miscarriage I experienced actually taught me many things. I became more attentive to my own body. I pay attention to my sleep time.

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I no longer eat packaged snacks from the market. I make homemade products. Also, I prefer to drink green juice with no added sugar. I no longer drink instant beverage product from market.

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Also, I ended up exercising regularly, lifting weights and doing aerobics.

Also, there is something more important. I love myself more. All this time I worked too hard and let everything feel heavy. After that lowest moment, I actually realized that my husband was always there, and how valuable I was (before this maybe I didn't realize that I was really loved).

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There may be times when we feel like we are nothing. We feel like light cotton that is simply blown away by the wind. But then again, it's just a sensitive feeling. Not really the situation.

From the pain I experienced, after losing my mother, and also losing my fetus, I realized that this was the time God had given me to be able to look inside myself again.

The constant pain only becomes meaningless if I give up. Then, I am grateful for the pain which makes me more mindful now.

Pain is just a test to lead us to a more beautiful place. And, when we arrive in the future, we will thank ourselves that we did not give up. If we give up, we will never get there. ❤️

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7-7-2023 for our one year wedding anniversary.

Thank you, 2023. Every year always has different joys and sorrows. But this year, I can say that this is a great year to teach me to be better. Because being stagnant in life is a loss. So, make as much progress as we can, even if only in small ways. Small things, big impact.

Thank you, Hivers. For all your support who always take the time to read my blog. Stay blessed! ❤️❤️❤️

Pssst, this is the first time I share my wedding photos with you guys! I use 2 traditional wedding dresses (in white and navy color); and 2 modern wedding dresses (in green and pink color).

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Thank you for reading my blog and reblog if you want my blog this time worthy of reading by others.

Best Regards,
Anggrek Lestari

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Who is Anggrek Lestari?

Anggrek Lestari is an Indonesian fiction writer who has published two major books. Now She is a full-time content creator. She has a goal to share life, poem, and food content that makes others happy and can get inspiration.

Contact Person: [email protected]
Discord: anggreklestari#3009

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There are many things in our lives that we cannot explain and understand. You are one strong woman, and behind you is a supportive husband. May your marriage be blessed with little Anggreks soon. 🥰

Beautiful wedding photos too. Stay happy.

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yeah, life is fulfilled with secret 😅
glad, husband is really supporting and never putting me on pressure
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In my city there is a phrase that says that: "the great battles are given to their best warriors." You had a beautiful wedding and you have known how to grow in the face of adversity. Soon all your effort will be rewarded with your goals and dreams fulfilled, you deserve it. From here I offer you my admiration and support. Happy 2024! 🤍✨

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First of all, thank you for your frankness.
Now few people will reveal the innermost secrets of their soul to unfamiliar or completely unfamiliar people.
And you are a very strong man!

Now and in the future, may happiness always accompany you.
I wish that all your dreams come true in the New Year.
And most importantly, good health to you and all your loved ones!

And I'm giving you a present. I drew it myself :-)

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Thank you for the present 🎁 @singa
I am glad I can share with many peoples on Hive. Such a beautiful community ❤️❤️❤️

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So sorry for both of your losses.

So happy to hear that it has given you strength to look at life differently and to grow stronger.

Your photos and clothes are all so beautiful. Thank you for sharing your experiences.

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Thank you for reading @jacey.boldart
We can not feel okay in fast time. Needed many days to heal and became stronger

we are learning from the mistake and the lowest moment. Happiness is just can be enjoyed when we have faced different feelings ❤️🎉🎉🎉

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I agree with what you say, from the pain and bad experiences, they leave us many lessons, getting up and being strong is the best decision, I am sorry for your loss my friend, I hope this year is splendid for your life.

All your dresses are beautiful, hugs and blessings.

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Friend, how sad to read about this event in your life, you are an intelligent and strong woman who has been able to cope with things very well. God bless you and I hope that God and the universe grant you many blessings that illuminate your life. Not everyone has the courage to tell these stories, but this shows that you have been able to move forward and see life in different colors. I send you all the love in the world, because you deserve it. Lots of kisses and hugs for you 💛.

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Btw, you look stunning in your wedding pictures 😍

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Virtual hugs to you 🤗🤗🤗

Needed many days to share this story 😊 glad people here supporting me ❤️🌸🌸🌸

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Hello my dear @anggreklestari, I have missed your blog and others for some circumstances that have me in a hurry for several weeks, between one thing and the other right here on Hive and in real life but as always I thank God for seeing your blog.

In this very special post, so intimate, I express my admiration, which already existed but continues to grow as a woman in solidarity with you, strong and brave, who has had to live painful experiences and they themselves are those that strengthen, it's hard but you are a great woman, worth gold for your husband and for everyone.

You are beautiful in your wedding pictures, the dresses are like from princess stories, how beautiful. I wish you a happy new year and yesterday's losses will be compensated with triple the best for you.

I embrace you virtually 🌷

!LUV

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hello, @parauri
No problem, we all have life to take care. I really appreciate your time to read my post.

Never be easy, and now almost a year for that losing and I have many lesson learned for that

Hope everything can be great especially on your new year ahead ❤️🎉🎉🎉

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I am so sorry to read that you have lost that baby that was on the way, it is not something easy to assimilate, and much less to share with others, I am glad that you have taken from all this the positive, and in short, this is what our life is reduced to, the learning that every situation leaves us, even when they are bad, only God knows why these things happen, and I am a faithful believer that it is when he says and not when we want it, probably that baby will come to you when the time is right, while that happens, enjoy your marriage, by the way, congratulations for it, I love the pictures, you look like a beautiful porcelain doll, blessings always to you.

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All things happened for reason, right? 😊

Thank you for your words and hope you have great new year coming 🎉🎉🎉

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You have overcome much this year in the losing of your baby. I understand sadness and am glad you've been able to overcome that and look at the positive that the year has had for you.

May you be blessed in 2024. Take care and thank you for sharing your lovely wedding photos. !LADY

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First of all, you're gorgeous in your wedding photos...

Life always teaches us lessons in one way or another..those challenges actually help us self-reflect and seek help from God because our weaknesses and sins are the only ones we can offer to Him. We may have different religions, but I guess that makes sense in all aspects... And sometimes grief turns into introspection.. You wouldn't know unless you experienced it.
I experienced this, and others will as well.
Nonetheless, you stayed stronger and even braver !LADY
I hope you will be blessed again with a baby this coming year. You're quite sensitive in that aspect, so always take that into account in case you're blessed again...
I knew some ladies who got miscarriages a few times before they successfully got pregnant.. Just be patient and have faith ☺️..

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Thank you, Jane. 😊😊😊
Agreed for the lesson learned. ❤️

You are a strong lady too. After the things happened to you.

Cheers for new years coming 🎉🎉🎉☕☕☕

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What a gorgeous dresses and I was sorry about the miscarriage that is a mark on the hart. I will pray for you. Thank you for all the curation and have a great 2024

!LADY

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Thank you for your praying

Happy new years ahead ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

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A very nice post that touches my heart. Don't give up and keep going, the sun always shines after the rain 🌈! By the way, you both look absolutely gorgeous in the photos 💚 Happy holidays and all the best for the year ahead 🎉🎆🎉🎆🎉🎆🎉🎆

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🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉 have a great new years ahead my friend

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I know the difficulty of losing the baby you long for. I lost one of mine at about the same time (I was 12 weeks along). Even though I already had three, I mourned the loss of that one. I did have another one later, but when we were getting ready to go home from the hospital with that last one, I cried. Why? We had a hole in our family. One was missing.

I don't think you ever truly get over the loss of a baby, but you do continue on, for your family and your friends. It does get easier to handle. I lost mine 24 years ago, but there are times it still hurts - a lot. While my husband helped me through (and himself as he mourned, too), it just isn't the same when you are the one who was carrying that baby. Sending a hug your way.

Such a beautiful bride you were.

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I just read your letter dear @anggreklestari and I am so sorry for the losses you have had, and how good it is that you have a husband by your side who loves you.
I understand you in many things and if it is true there are moments of very strong afflictions in our lives, but although sometimes we do not understand everything is for the best.
Thank you for sharing part of your experience this year, it really touched my heart, and the photos of your marriage are truly beautiful. A hug 🥰🌹

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The relationship of marriage is very special and after this relationship two people have to spend the whole life with each other and this relationship is very strong.

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Hey Ang!💕 I'm sorry to read you've been living such a sad and hardful times. I know it's not easy to lose a baby, even though it's just a fetus and it's only in the early stage of developing. I was in this situation too, this year, just like you. So I know how hard it is and how incomplete I was. I'm here for you with my heart! I'm sure you can find strenght to move on, as you said, especially with your loved one by your side.
I also think that our goal now is to try being healthy and pay attention to our body's needs. If we are healthy, its so much better and chances to get pregnant again are much higher.
I wish you a prosperous Happy New Year in 2024 and wish you to feel at you best, outside and inside!

much love, missdeli 💔❤️

p.s. The wedding photos are very beautiful and you and all the dresses!

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Thank you for supporting me 🎉🎉🎉
Yeah our goals are healthier ❤️

I wishes you the great year ahead too ❤️❤️❤️

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Sorry for the late comment, 2023 has been a year of both good and bad news for you. I hope 2024 will be a year of mostly good news. I agree that showing weakness is not a good thing. When you show people a weakness they try to hurt you from there.

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Overcoming our negatives with positive you have learned a wonderful lesson in life, although exceptionally hard to accept listening to your inner-self has brought you here.

Dresses are exquisite I must say!

!LUV
!LADY

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Pink looks great on you 😍, but I think I like the green outfit best. You look great in all of 'em though.

It's super cool that you learned so much from your loss. I think that's a win in itself.

Kudos! And happy fruitful and prosperous new year to you. 🌻

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