Being modest helps me with stress and death of a loved one

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No matter how much I simplify my life there will always be some situation that generates anguish and anxiety. This is fatal for me as stress is reflected in my body with a lot of pain, especially in my hips and legs. It is surprising how it affects me emotionally and therefore in the rest of my chores, therefore, it is vital to act to counteract the discomfort.

Obviously I try to lead a minimalist life in all aspects to combat stress and an effective antidote is to immerse myself in nature. There is nothing that gives me more pleasure and relaxes me than watching a sunset, seeing the flowers and feeling the mountains surrounding me. The colors of nature revive me and although I have had to cry in this beautiful environment, I always end up consoled. Where I live there are not many green spaces or flowers but I always escape to a nearby town to feel the balsam that nature generously gives me.

There are times when I can't get out, like right now, on Friday I lost a loved one in death, a baby, my one day old nephew and that has confined me to my bed because of the emotional pain and my sharp pain in my hip. What I have done is to unburden myself quietly in my bed, stop thinking about what could have been done and was not done, these are thoughts of grief but there is no solution, so I have fought them by watching movies where you see beautiful landscapes because somehow I move there and I feel calmer. Unfortunately I have only been able to go to see my sister once because my legs do not give me as much as I would like.

It is not easy to stop thinking when you are in a lot of pain, however, I have been able to divert my thoughts. I have seen pictures I took earlier in beautiful landscapes and somehow I am transported to that moment. When I feel like crying I do it until I calm down and then when the thoughts come I divert them. I would love to be better able to help but I must also be modest, I had four days of anguish and my muscles have contracted a lot, so for now what I must do is to recover so I can help in a practical way because what I could do while we were in the hospital I did, now I must concentrate on recovering and then continue to help as far as I can.

I would love to be able to take the pain away from all my family members who are suffering but that is not in my power so there is no point in thinking about it. The wisest thing to do is to focus on what I can do and move on. It may sound selfish, but it is the reality. I will recover and I will console myself but I should not keep thinking about anything else that is not in my possibilities because this generates more pain and what I do is to make things worse. Let's be modest, let's divert our thoughts and let ourselves be embraced by nature.

All photos are my own, taken with a Realme 7i.